The sun is out

Well I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was pretty down for a while about the prospect of leaving our house and I was pretty screaming mad at our ex-contractor for putting us in this horrible financial situation! I am still mad, but I am  getting over it. We have a plan now. I am impaitient to get things moving and I really want to start seeing some progress, but at least I know hat direction we are going in. PJ's parents have been great and really helped us get some much needed yard clean up done, my mom has been kind enough to offer us her house while we get things sorted.

In the mean time I am looking forward to enjoying our house for Christmas and enjoying this season of joy and thankfulness. Despite all the the other "stuff", we have a lot to be happy about this year. We got married, we are still very happy about being together, we are tired but healthy, we have good jobs and families who are there for us. It is really not so bad.

I am looking forward to the holiday parties (5th one this weekend) and relaxing on my holidays! One more week before back to work!

To move or to move farther...

We have decided that in order to complete our reno faster, we need to move and rent out the upper floor of our house. It isn't really something I want to do, in fact it is the thing I least want to do. It feels so much like a step backwards. If I were really honest it is because it means letting go of the dream life where everything goes according to plan. I get my house, we get married, we have babies and I have money to buy them things and decorate a room for them and I happily have fun lunch dates with friends while on maternity leave.

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My brain seems to work in extremes, so because of the money situation that is requiring us to move out of our house means my brain thinks we will never have enough money to have a child, it will always be hard and blah blah blah. I need a money tree!

Right, Back to reality! It is not the end of the world. We are very fortunate that both PJ's parents and my mother  have offered to have us in their homes while we get things sorted out in the basement. Logistically my mother has more space and privacy to offer, and we have already lived there so we know it works. I also am willing to let go of the dream and realize things may not be how I planned but it will all work out.